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I wrote this Christmas morning but am getting around now to posting it. Still feeling icky but I’m going to try and skew more positive.

Got a lot of goodies this morning, most excitedly a screen print press. I’ve been dying to get back into designing again, and being able to print at home will get me back into it. Also got a nice 220 mesh speedball screen, and I’m going to invest in two more. I need to make things that are simple and gimmicky. I’ve been eating way too many vegetables in my printmaking practice (which is valuable) but I need to find joy in making again.

About five years ago, I made fan art for a local musician and she bought the design to use for merch. I’m thinking about reaching out to her again and showing her some of my new stuff. I need to be more bold i think.

Also I was able to eat dinner today without feeling like I was forcing myself to eat. The past couple of months stress has basically shut my stomach off, and eating anything more than a few bites has been difficult. I hate how physical my emotions are sometimes. Maybe this is a sign that I’m healing. I’m gonna look at it that way.

Anyways, I’m going to see Marty Supreme tomorrow with some friends. I’m always so happy to spend time with them, I don’t have to feel like I’m putting on a performance. I don’t think I’ve reached that level with a lot of my friends in the city yet. I have to watch myself a lot of the time. I am too much for a lot of people.



Update: Marty supreme was so fucking good. I finally get the chalamet hype #wantthat. Will write more about it tomorrow

Thank you for reading if there is anyone there. And thanks to the void for letting me take up some space.

Merry Christmas